On The Ledge

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , on July 2, 2012 by littlemissfur

…while you’re so damn polite and composed.

Oh hi blog i completely forgot about until right now. Honestly, i just wanted to come back to a place where i can write out things in my life that are making me want to go into a tizzy.

Well, let’s see, where to start….

A few weeks ago i went to a church camp. Here, i had a lot happen. I became the happiest person there for some time. Why? I received a prayer from a man whom my friend, Giraffe, knew very well. Every year she has gone he’s prayed for her, and this year was my first so he decided to pray for me as well.

I pretty much cried like a little bitch. Why? Because this man knew nothing about me but managed to know that my greatest fear was being like my mother. God told him to tell me that i would not e like her, and be provided a husband in years to come.

Now, i understand some people may think thats a load a shit, but to me it struck home. All i want in my life is to love and be loved. Why? Well, my mom is a very bitter woman after what happened to her. She’s constantly grumpy, and still loves my father you left her.

I pray all the time for that not to happen to me. I don’t want to fall in love and have my heart broken into thousands of pieces unable to be mended because i’m cold and lifeless now. So yeah. Hearing that at church camp made me pretty happy.

Will it happen? Who knows but the big man upstairs.

On the other hand a good friend of mine likes me, but i don’t like him in that way. Ugh. Relationships are so…..effing confusing and dumb!!!

//teenage rant over//

On a completely different matter, FURSONAS xD Any Furs out there who care to share what their fursona is? Silver Fox present, but anyone who may have glanced at these already knows that. I’m still working on making a reference of her soon, but i’ll get there.

I don’t have much else to say now that i’ve ranted some.

Song of the day?


Scream, Till You Believe It

Posted in Uncategorized on December 5, 2011 by littlemissfur

Title courtesy of the song “Scream” by Tokio Hotel. I love those German boys <3

Anyway. It’s been a few days since i last logged on, and i found two new notifications about a person called Talin401  liking and following my post. I was like “Cool, i’ll go check them out.” there was one post that really stuck out. Here’s the link: http://talinorfali.wordpress.com/2011/12/02/you-are-special-never-forget-it/

If you don’t read it, i’ll sum it up. She’s talking about how we’re all unique individuals and should be proud for what we can do and not we can’t. Be proud of yourself. I know, you hear and read stuff like that all the time, but it gave me a little inspiration.

Plus, we’re ALL guilty of putting ourselves down at some point. Just this morning i said to myself “I’m such a moron, i left my fabric at home.” (I have a clothing class i’m taking). So when i read that blog i was like, wow, thats a bit ironic.

So, for my next few posts i’m going to write some good qualities i have. I’ll write two that come to mind right now.

1. Good Listener~ My friends often tell me i’m a good listener, and i enjoy listening to people. I don’t talk as much really. I’m called the “mother” of my group of friends for many reasons. I’m very protective over my “pack” as i like to call them, but i’m also the one everyone goes to advice for. Which is funny, since most of the time i’ve never been in their shoes, but i always seem to provide them with information and insight that resolves the issue at hand. I think this is a positive quality because i know not a lot of people take the time to really listen to anyone anymore. People are always caught up in their own lives to notice when something may be wrong.

So, if there are any readers of mine who would like to talk about some things, let me know! I’d be happy to talk, and even make some friends here.

2. Creative Writing~ I love to write. Things like this, a blog, but mostly fantasy based things. I LOVE to RP on forums because i just enjoy writing. I also write stories, but i haven’t ever finished any. My dream is to become a great fantasy author, so i constantly make myself do some sort of writing every day.

Well, those are two things about me i’m proud of. I’ll likely keep putting myself down, but thats just how i am. I’m hoping that with this journal/blog entry i might be able to make myself feel a bit better throughout my day.

Until the water falls

~Miss Fur

Day….oh who cares now, honestly. xD

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on November 30, 2011 by littlemissfur

I said it before and i’ll say it again. I’m horrible at keeping journals or anything of the like. So much has happened since i last posted i don’t even know where to begin. So i’ll start with everyone’s favorite little thing. Relationships.

This Thanksgiving wasn’t very thankful. My uncle, whom i love to death, made a small dinner for his ex GF. See. My uncle and aunt had some issues last year, during which he met with another woman. And then the dumbass makes her a small dinner and takes it to her, even though he’s back with my aunt. His wife. I love him, but he’s really making stupid decisions right now. But alas, there is nothing this fox can do about it.

So here’s the blurb today: why can’t anyone be faithful these days? I mean, i’m not saying everyone out there is cheating, jut that it happens a lot. And what for? To get even? For fun? Because you, and i quote someone “Just could” really people? What’s wrong with you.

I know so many people who think gay marriage and relationships are wrong, but as i look around, i see more successful relationships there than with normal relationships. IT pisses me off how other will put the gays and lezi’s down for what they do, when the people putting them down can’t even get their own relationship in order. It seems highly hypocritical to me. (Just for clarification, i am a straight girl thank you, but i believe love is love, no matter who it’s with. AND i’m Christian, so stick that in your juice box and suck it!)

Anyway. I guess i’m just tired of seeing the world go to shit in general, but if love is really all we need, why do people do stupid things and ruin it? Haha, maybe i’m just bitter at being alone xD JK, i don’t mind really. Well, i do, but i live with it. Unless i know theres a man out there who can handle all my “salsa” i’m perfectly happy alone.

So, to anyone who reads this, here’s my question: What irks you about relationships today? Feel free to comment, please, i think this could turn into an interesting discussion. 

On another note, i was accepted into my community college today. Not a miracle, but it brought a little bit of joy into my life. I also had a tremendous amount of fun playing Just Dance with my Anime & Gamer’s club after school today. I failed horribly at it, but it was fantastic nonetheless. I look forward to doing it again soon.

Song of the day~

As always, your little Furry Fox,

~Miss Fur


Day three: I’m Genie In A Bottle

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on November 17, 2011 by littlemissfur

Well, it seems as though i’m terrible at keeping up with this blog. Thats probably another reason why i have, like, 6 unused diaries in my room. I was always horrible at trying to keep up with them. And, to add to this, my internet will likley be shut of in a number of days because we (my mother and myself) cannot pay it at this time.

I have such fantastic timing for creating such a thing, non? Well, besides the point. I decided to talk a little bit about music today.

You may have noticed the title. Does anyone remember that song by Christina Aguilera? I do, it was one of my favorite songs when i was younger. Of course, now i relaize how dirty the song truly is. Several songs that i loved when i was younger i not noticed are completely sexual and i thought to myself, why on earth did my mother let me listen to this?

So right now, i’m going to examine three of my favorite songs when i was a youngster.

Number one:  Everybody by Backstreet Boys (Yes, i AM a Backstreet Boys and N*Sync girl. I still listen to the CD’s on a regular basis)


Ok, this one is a little more subtle, but still, the sexual innuendo is there. My mother was in love with these guys, just as i was. So, i know exactly why i came to love them, as well as this song. But you gotta admit, having a 7 year old singing this around Wal-Mart is a little odd, especially when she sings “Am I sexual?” xD

Next, Genie In A Bottle by Christina Aguilera.

Alright, do i need to explain the sexuality in this? I mean, LOOK at her dance. Her body just screams “Take me on the floor” I remember me and my friend “Panda” (Once again, name changed to protect the innocent) watching this video all the time because we idolized her so much. And now i’m think “Wow, my friend and i were almost like mini-sluts.”

But this next one has to be the best…Bonanza by Akon

Granted, this song came out in 07 to which i was in 6th or 7th grade, but at this time, i didn’t really pay attention to the lyrics of this song, i merely loved the beat. I danced around the house all the time listening to this song, just cuz i loved to shake my ass to this song.  I had completely forgotten about this song until a while back when i was watching Fired Up and heard this song.

So i went to Youtube and had a whole epiphany about it, then listened to the lyrics. It’s a wonder i haven’t turned into an actual whore. And once again, i wonder why my mother ever let me listen to such things.

Parenting. Ah, a wondrous job, but definitely not for the feint of heart.

Well, that was my little rant for today. Tomorrow i have Study Hall, which is for what? Goofing Off! I’ll try to make a post, but i’m also attempting to keep this blog from actual people i know, and since Domino is in there, he would likely steal my computer just to be a dick.

Ah, young love. xD

Well. Until the last rose dies,

~Miss Fur



Day two: Study Hall Is For Goofing Off

Posted in Uncategorized on November 14, 2011 by littlemissfur

Hello non-existent readers! As the title says, study hall is really just used for goofing off. Typically i’d be sitting at a table in the library, pretending to be doing something useful so the librarians don’t yell at me, but really i’m speaking to my friend Domino. (Obviously, this isn’t his real name, but to protect the innocent, names will be changed).

Domino is a good friend of mine, i’ve know him for years. And for everyone one of those years, you guessed it, i’ve really liked the guy. But alas, love and the heart are fragile and petty things and so the feelings matter not. But that doesn’t really matter i guess. Love rarely works the way we wish it would. Or ever for that matter.

However, on this day in study hall, my dear Domino isn’t here. Strange actually. Even Spice isn’t here. Now, Spice isn’t a real close friend of mine, but she’s actually pretty cool to hang with.

So, here i sit, alone and bored, wondering just what to talk about. And truthfully, i have nothing. I have no idea what to waste my time writing about. At this moment i almost wish i did have some readers, so i might ask for some topics on which to talk about. Since, however, you are not really there, i thought perhaps a small Meme about myself might suffice to any questions lurking within the minds of my ghostly audience.

So, without further ado, here is a little bit about me.

What are your top 3 favorite foods?
Anything with alfredo will make it to the top three foods of choice. I also enjoy Arby’s curly fries, because their just awesome, and of course, chicken.  I don’t care how you make it, i’ll devour chicken easily, though as of now my favorite is any kind of spicy chicken.

What was the last book you read and would you recommend it?
Hmm, the last book i read was called “Fanboy and Gothgirl” by Barry Lyga. It was interesting, and i didn’t really expect to enjoy it as much as i did, though i admit i was a little disappointed with the ending. I would recommend it, but only if you enjoy books that are about, well, life i guess.

What are your top 3 favorite places?
My room, of course. I love it and it always smells like vanilla. Secondly, probably my grandma’s house. Yes, i said it, grandma’s house. I love my grandmother, and i often escape to her house to get away. Lastly, i’d have to go with the library. The bookworm in me loves being in library’s because i love to read and i adore the scent of books. I know, i’m a strange child.

What was the last lie you told?
To be honest, i’m not sure i remember. I’m not a Mary Sue or anything, i lie quite often actually, but at this particular time, i do not know what my last lie was.

What are your favorite 3 sports (to watch or participate in)?
I enjoy watching football, though i hardly understand it. I like to play floor hockey, though i’m terrible at it. But thats about it really. I’m not much or a sports girl, as i have horrible coordination.

What was the last movie you watched and would you recommend it? The last movie i watched? Well…..technically i guess it’s not a movie, but i’m currently re-watching Ouran High School Host Club, which is an anime. (J’adore anime). I would recommend it for those who enjoy romantic/comedy sorts of things, though i think its most suited for comedy.

List 3 things you can see outside of the nearest window.
Well…there are no windows where i am to look out.

Where was the last place you went?
Well, school? I’m still at school actually, but since i woke up, this is the only place i have been.

What are your top 3 favorite “good causes” or charities?
There’s really only one charity i’ve ever really been interested in, and thats the ASPCA. I pretty much hate anyone who abuses their animals, and i would one day like to be able to offer my services to such a place. Mostly as one of the cops who get to take down the abusers if they try to run :D

What was the last thing you did for someone else?
I helped my friend Panda create a timeline for her sociology project. I’m excited to know that i’m in it, but less than thrilled to know that she has a picture in her powerpoint of me when i was little. I’m not too fond of the idea of others seeing how i was.

Name 3 places you have never been that you want to visit.
Japan, Ireland, and Italy. Enough said.

What was the last thing you threw in the garbage/recycling?
A gum wrapper :3

Name 3 things on your bedside table.
A lamp, and two books…..thats it.

Describe or name the last piece of art you looked at.
Well, in the consideration that it was my own artwork for a class, it looked hideous. The lines that i tried so hard to make smooth and flowing into the piece still insist on the jagged edges being visible and i feel like an utter failure currently because of that.

What was the last musical or theatrical event that you attended?
My school’s production of Steel Magnolia’s a believe.

What are the first 3 things you would do if you won the lottery?
Help pay off all the bills and stuff first. Then, with the leftover money, go on a trip to Disney World, and save the rest of the money so i can make a fursuit. Yep, i went there.

Describe or name the last serious injury or illness you had?
Last year i fractured my ankle when running down the stairs. This is why i said i don’t play sports…

What are the top 3 things that you wish you could do?
I wish i could edit my body to the way i want it to look. I know, it sounds superficial, but it’s true. Next, i’d like to pay of all the bills that are piling up at home so i could have a financial peace of mind. Lastly, i’d really like to go on a nice date with someone.

Well now. That was interesting. Actually, i found it rather dull. But, i killed some time, and honestly, that was all i was trying to do. So i shall sign off now.m When i get home, the wonderful aroma of food will greet me, and i’ll be happy once again. (I haven’t eaten all day, so going home sounds fantastic right about now.)

Until the river bends,

~Miss Fur

Day One: Well, This Is Awkward

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on November 13, 2011 by littlemissfur

Well, hello there. I suppse right now, i’m merely talking to the screen. And myself i suppose. But make no mistake, i am not crazy. No…thats not true, i am, indeed crazy, to an extent i suppose. Everyone is a little crazy in their own way. Were we not, we’d all be a bunch of boring people.  Boring is too normal, and normal, well, normal is just another form of suicide as i always say. Yes, you can quote me on that.

But i suppose, in order to quote me, you’d actually have to know me, right? Well then. My real name, shall remain a mystery to everyone. However, in case anyone actually wastes their time reading my words, you can call me Miss Fur. “Miss Fur? That sounds weird.” Why yes, it probably does. While i’m at it, i’ll go ahead and say it. I’m a Furry. Don’t know what a Furry is? Well then, you’re missing out! Haha, not really. But allow me to elaborate, cuz if you go off in search of what a “Furry” is, you might very well get the wrong idea, as so many others have.

Furry: A person who enjoys anthropomorphic animals.  What does that mean? Well, i assume everyone knows who Bugs Bunny is, and if not, you have some serious problems and should probably consult a therapist. Anyways, Bugs Bunny. He’s a bunny, but he walks and talks like a human. In a strange and deluded sense, Bugs Bunny is a Furry. (To be honest…i blame him as well as Tom & Jerry and many other child cartoons for my Furry self, but i digress, this is of no importance).

So, thats a short version of Furry. When you search it, you might see some more “suggestive” things. Yes, there’s Furry porn. Just like theres Gay porn, Normal porn, and even Pokemon porn. Why? Well, everyone has a sick part of their mind. (Pokephelia…..is just wrong…just…..wrong). Furries get a bad wrap for this, saying we’re horrible people. We like beastality and dream of having creepy Furry sex all day long.

You know what? It’s a lie. Not all of us think about doing it doggy-style in the back of a truck every day. We are admittedly, human. So of course we think about sex. I mean, c’mon. It’s SEX. As an 18 year old, i do recognize my hormones, thank you very much.

Oh dear, i seem to have gotten off topic. And here i was worried that i wouldn’t be able to figure out what to talk about. I’m not even sure why i decided to write this blog. Boredom perhaps? Maybe. But i guess it’s just to let off a little steam, speak my mind, and eventually, get some feed back. I enjoy writing, and this is a more productive way for me to do it i guess.  Plus, i often have some interesting days that i’d like to share with others. Sometimes good, sometimes bad, just like everyone else in the world.

Well now. You know now the following: I’m a Furry, a silver fox to be exact. I’m also 18, and a female. And while we’re at it, i’ll let you in on another secret: i’m a high school senior currently. Shocking, non? Lol, not really so shocking i bet. We teenage girls always enjoy getting ourselves into a little mischief every once in a while, keeps things interesting.

Not bad for a first blog. You learned something new! But for now, i’m going to sign off. I look forward to talking to some of you readers. Maybe i’ll even get a comment or two! Probably not, but it’s an interesting thought. If you’ll excuse me, i must go continue reading a Manga i just recently got hooked on. “Whats Manga?” you ask? Look it up my empty audience, Google can be a great thing i can assure you.

Until the ‘morrow,

~ Miss Fur