On The Ledge

…while you’re so damn polite and composed.

Oh hi blog i completely forgot about until right now. Honestly, i just wanted to come back to a place where i can write out things in my life that are making me want to go into a tizzy.

Well, let’s see, where to start….

A few weeks ago i went to a church camp. Here, i had a lot happen. I became the happiest person there for some time. Why? I received a prayer from a man whom my friend, Giraffe, knew very well. Every year she has gone he’s prayed for her, and this year was my first so he decided to pray for me as well.

I pretty much cried like a little bitch. Why? Because this man knew nothing about me but managed to know that my greatest fear was being like my mother. God told him to tell me that i would not e like her, and be provided a husband in years to come.

Now, i understand some people may think thats a load a shit, but to me it struck home. All i want in my life is to love and be loved. Why? Well, my mom is a very bitter woman after what happened to her. She’s constantly grumpy, and still loves my father you left her.

I pray all the time for that not to happen to me. I don’t want to fall in love and have my heart broken into thousands of pieces unable to be mended because i’m cold and lifeless now. So yeah. Hearing that at church camp made me pretty happy.

Will it happen? Who knows but the big man upstairs.

On the other hand a good friend of mine likes me, but i don’t like him in that way. Ugh. Relationships are so…..effing confusing and dumb!!!

//teenage rant over//

On a completely different matter, FURSONAS xD Any Furs out there who care to share what their fursona is? Silver Fox present, but anyone who may have glanced at these already knows that. I’m still working on making a reference of her soon, but i’ll get there.

I don’t have much else to say now that i’ve ranted some.

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